so i'm goin through these boxes, my life's gone off track 'cause its been three years and he hasnt written back. but in my eyes, he's still mine & i know it sounds so stupid to be waiting this long, but i'm still in love & i know i'm not wrong. 'cause in my eyes, he was mine.

here i am again, i havent blogged in a looong time i'm so ashamed. i guess i've been so caught up in everything that i forgot to. k so today was alright, had the science unit test in first and i think i did pretty well, not too sure tho. then watched "simon birch" in religion during second OMGGGG SO SADDDD. i cried for a good 40 minutes and then had to spend 20 minutes fixing my eyeliner LOL. nts dont go to religion with make up on when watching a movie. then went to lunch with the usual and came back, fuck mr padure maaan. its the last day of school before march break, we had our unit test yesterday, and he decides to start a new unit today and expects us to finish like 4 sheets of entire slope questions. fuck that i didn't even pay attention when he was explaining how to calculate it LOL i'm probably gonna finish it during lunch on the monday we get back. instead of fourth, we had our haiti benefit concert, so liveee omg. the three t's + vp LMFAO WTF. i still love meagher and doucet. its kinda creepy but whatever dont judge meeeee k and then went to eatons to meet up with some people, wow weather was so shit today, but made it there without getting rained on lool. OMG then me & reid booked some guy giving some other person drugs LOLOL that kid's got some eyesight. then went to the olympium for swimming OMG PASSED BRONZE CROSS YES FODSMVDUIFVSDUCHNSDIUVJGNFGJ. I DONT EVER HAVE TO TAKE THAT COURSE AGAIN I'M SO HAPPY next is nls and then i'm a lifeguard; looking forward to the pay thats coming my way next summer ahaa. kaay i'm tired so i'm gonna end it here, going to alaina's tmr so we can start jamming for that song. planning on doing something for st joes, "hallelujah - alexandra burke"? really, really reaaally good song. looking forward to see how i can play it on the guitar. done with memorizing the chords now all i have to do is practice the picking, so yeaah i have it all figured out (Y) arrighttt lates

swim meet today, 3rd place? eeeeh not so bad. but could have done better. anyways; today i felt what it feels like to be really really really sad in a long, long time. on december 28th, james sullivan died , & his birthday's today; february the 10th. idk but i got home after the swim meet today and ran into my room & started crying like a maniac. it hurts too much to think right now. i didn't know him really well before he died, and now i watch old videos of him and listen to his solos and i realize how much i've been missing out on. if only i payed more attention to you before, then i would have got to know what kind of musician/person you were. if only CARLA INTRODUCED ME TO A7X SOONER D< LOL JOKING. but really, i feel like shit and i'm really down right now, i just miss him a lot. i keep thinking he's gonna come back but he isn't going to.. and i need to keep reminding myself of that, but it's too hard to. i need to hear him alive and happy, slightly retarded like he always was ;P after listening to them and talking about them with carla, the pain just got worse and worse, because now i know that jimmy's gone, and i was too stupid to pay attention to him before when he was here. jimmy, i miss you. rest in peace baby (L) we love you so much. FEB.10.1981-DEC.28.2009

i haven't blogged in like 4 days or so , daaamn. i was so caught up in the new semester and AVENGED SEVENFOLD (L) i am so grateful for carlapants who showed them to me LOLOL i love them with everything i have. first semester's actually going along okay for me, except for all the "friends" that are annoying the shit out of me and MATH CLASSS . i hate math LOOL . as for those "friends" . i'm not a bitch at all but blogspot is where i let out what i feel when i can't tell anybody else . then again the whole world could be reading this , greeaat . lol k anyways , so i sit with a group for lunch but so many people have been bugging me asking if they can hang with us , and when i say no , they friggin invite themselves over and sit wherever , like wtf . we go to the government for a reason lool . ANYWAYS THAT'S ALL FOR NOW KBYE (:

ohhh damn forgot to write yesterday so here it is , lol did nothing yesterday , well i dont really remember what happened yesterday . uhhh saturday ,, i stayed home the whole day because i wasn't allowed out for the kpop meet or hangouts with angie :C i swear my parents are taking it too far / k so today i woke up at 12 and headed out at 1 to catch avatar with stephen and david omg best movie eveeeerrrr . but we sat in the front so my neck hurted the ride back home lool but still . it was really good . andandand 2ND SEM TOMORROW OMG MR MEAGHER LOLOL (L) i can't wait . but math with mr padure's gonna be ughhhh . i had enough of him during french lol . k so i have to organize my binders and shiz so i shall get off of blogspot nao kbyeeeeeeeeeeeeees(:

heeello hellloooo ~ so today was my last exam day , omg you have no idea how happy i am . i hate exams with all my life & now its all over . i am . so happy . k so after our english exam today (which was easier than i thought it would be) i called david like twice to figure out what was gonna happen after school lmao . and then i called roy like 5 times ? idk , but i took the subway to christie to meet up with the st raymond childies and then i took the subway to royal york & omg . longest bus ride ever , lol i never ride . LOL TWSS ANYWAYS uhh i never take the bus cos all i take is the ttc here . so i take it to dixon and its snowing like fugggg . so i run past the graveyard and almost slip like twice aahahah i fail . and then hung out at roy's until like 4 30 & HIS MOM COMES IN OMG i thought oh maann . i am so screwed . lol i was grounded so i wasn't allowed out . so i took the subway home with tony & james , fell asleep on the train lol woke up at bay like . where the effff am i . so i took it to st george and landed at osgoode , ran back home and called my mom all like "aaahh the guilt was eating me alive i went to roy's" and she was all like . awww susaaaay D: its okay . i am so happy i'm not dead . and i dont think i'm grounded anymore so that's good . K SO EXAMINASHUNS ARE DONE LIKE OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I AM SO HAPPY . i think i did pretty well lmao and i dont think i failed so that's good i guess . k so i have a swim meet , goodbye abblebodie (:

kay so today , i had a french examinashun . it was actually pretty easy , i'm happy i actually didn't study the "lui & leur" and "en & y" really hard because it wasn't even mentioned in the test , like once only . and i'm so happy i memorized all the passe compose and the futur simple lolololol . i forgot everything i did last year >< but i still got it so i'm good (: and for the composition part omg . we were supposed to write 40-50 words on a vacation that you remember to this day . i wrote 263 words LOLOL . one page & a half . i actually think i'll get marks deducted aha . but i wont fail . after exams , i was sitting in front of my locker eating for like 20 minutes cos i finished early . then carlapants finished so her and i went to her house for 2 hours , straightened my hair xD and then headed to harbord to see a few friends OMG . we left like 1 hr and a half before harbord ended . so we were out in the cold for at least 40 minutes lol . we drank jesus hot chocolate oh yeeeeee . after harbord ended we headed back to carla's house oh man , left at 1 40 , came back at 4 . we're just too cool ~~~~ LOLOL WATCHED THIR13EN GHOSTS . SO FUCKEN SCARY . to me everything's scary but whateeevvs it still was . i cried again . glass houses OMG . goddammit i cry when i watch any movie i swear to gosssh its like . marley & me = toy story 2 = paranormal activity = thir13en ghosts ? danny says i pussy out . but i dont D< i'm just really soft .. & NOW I'M GROUNDED FOR COMING HOME @ 8 YAAAY . i need a later curfew . so the party on thursday's called off , the party on saturday's called off , and the jam on sunday's called off too . i had to pick the worst week to mess up and now i can't go to 3 parties , greeaaat / so now me & alaina are trying to see what we're gonna do for jam night . i can't sing for shit so i'm probably gonna play guitar for her & she'll sing instead (: lol i get excited about these things so late .. i'm excited for java jam too . its happening in november . fml ... i dont regret "us" ever happening . i'll live , learn , forgive , and forget . i have loved , & i wont ever regret me loving you . it doesn't seem like you're doing the same , but its okay . you're a good person . i know you will soon .